everyone has problems.

[digital*aria]

*dedicating this thread to discussions about particular problems some people might be going through*

i think we have a great support system here, and its nice to always have someone to talk to.

and who knows? some people might even have suggestions for those who are having a particularly rough time.






so ill start:


basically what i have is called panic disorder: http://www.webmd.com/anxiety-panic/g...panic-disorder

dont ask me how it started, i seriously dont know. i have great friends, im good in school, no particularly stressful things happen to me, and the situation with my parents is long past worrying over.

but its just... its worse than ever now and its controlling me.

last sunday i went to my cousins housewarming party and i was having a panick attack the entire time just because i was afraid i would get one. (thats why i was crying by the way... i had a good cry that night)

and yesterday i went to the mall with my mom and aunt and i was fighting one the entire time i was there. and even though i went home and i was fine, i was so worried i would have one that i had one last night that lasted for about 6 hours. i went to bed at 10:30 and i couldnt sleep, my legs were shaking etc and i had to play music and sleep with my mom so she could try to calm me down.

when you get a panick attack (im sure a few of you have had one possibly) it seriously feels like youre going to die. its the worst feeling ive ever had to endure.

but i couldnt fall asleep until 3:30 this morning. and im still shakey and trying to get over it.


i dont know what to do. i need serious help, and i dont know if a therapist would work.

a little bit of self injury has also derived from this. i feel like im falling apart.

[Dark_DJ]

awww

that sounds really horrible aria.

i really hope you can find a way to feel better and lessen your panic attacks *ginormous hugs to you*

i really dont know what else to say

[Skills_sant^^]

Im really sorry to hear that aria :/ *hugs* Must be, like Dark said, horrible. I can only imagine how it feels like.

[Dark_DJ]

it isnt nice, ive had one before.

and just to add to the topic, a run down of my problems (medical)(in a nutshel)

Aspergers Syndrome: basically a mild type of autism that i have had since i was born. when i was younger my nan (legal guardian) and my doctor wanted to check up on me because i was really violent and nasty.

they diagnosed me with aspergers.

now, i could have gone two ways: no guidance and i would have been an outcast (an abomination, if you will), or at least unlikely to succeed in life.

I apparently (cringe) could have never been able to use a toilet apparently, or socialise, or tie my own shoes. But luckily i went the other way, and my nan brought me up to be who i am today. s i thank her and love her dearly for making sure i didnt turn out to be that other way

Skeletal Dysplacia / Skuliosis

basically affects my bones,. making them weak and slightly curved. this basicaly means that my fingers and back mainly are always in pain and are curved.
My back is the worse because some days i cant move because of it

Diabetes

yes, i have this, and am insulin dependant... its not as bad as i thought but i have to be careful of what i eat and do because of this...

i also have weak ashma(sp?) and , recently, dermititis (apparently, where my skin is always itchy and spotty/scabby), on top of bad eyesight...

god, im a walking disaster....

[Alex]

Damn, thats horrible aria. Must feel veru weird and bad when youre having a panick attack because youre trying not to have one. Everyone, hug on Aria!!

As for me, i dont have panick attacks, but i have a lot of repressed anger. I can be as cold as ice, but if something its my bone, i stay cool, but when im alone, i get very angry and start punching things, if not myself. I also dont much self-confidence. None, really.

[Aero5555]

I'm very sorry to hear that Aria.

I myself was born 2 months pre-mature, my birth was complicated to the point that the doctors say that me and my mom would've died if we reached the emergency room a half hour or so later. I don't have any serious or major health problems, the only issue I have is that my body is weaker than it should be in terms of muscle strength, especially the left side of my body, it was worse during the early days of my childhood, I couldn't even walk up or down the stairs with both of my legs, I could only move utilizing my right leg, but it's better now, and not that much of an issue anymore, though my left side is considerably weaker than my right side.

So yeah, best wishes, and I hope everything turns out ok.

[Skills_sant^^]

Aww, I’m sorry to hear Dark, Amq and Aero :/

Well, I might as well say my issue(s):

I had problems stuttering since I was little, and it got commented, a lot. This of course went out on my self esteem, I was scared to death talking in front of people, I started sweating and I stuttered so much I could barely talk. But, thank god, I grew out of the stuttering when I was around 8. But the self esteem may look okay, but deep inside, it’s not.

I’ve had depressions, suicidal, you know that feeling that you are in this biiig black hole, and you just can’t get out. And perfection about school, I would get so nervous if everything wasn’t perfect. But, all of this went away after like 2 years. Started at 12, and ended at 14. But it was two of the most horrible years of my life. And I still get scared of thinking that I going to fall back into the hole..

Urgh, enugh x)

[gymtonic]

well, this might not be suited for this thread, and apologies in advance.

December 7th 2007, probable the last happy day i've had this past year.
I moved house, not far away, about 10 mins, but i rarely see my friends from my old street.
And, I've kinda been depressed since...
I miss y old house, i mean, my new house is wonderful, i love it to bits, but it doesnt feel home to me... its just house.
I know it's just bricks and mortar, but I lived in that previous house for over 10 years.
And, I haven't made any new friends on my new street, I keep on telling myself: "I don't need friends here, I have my old street" but I know I'm wrong.
Mynew bedroom is really small, too small actually to fit suff in, i had to compromise on my desk and bed to make it fit, and there's still barley any room it walk around.
Not like my old house where I had the attic.
At first I was against the idea of moving house, but was slowly convinced that it was a good idea, it was fun living in my new house for the first month or so, but then the novelty wore out, and it just feels like a place of no return.
I think about this every day and night, upsetting myself every time.
Because of this I'm moving down sets in school, missing homeworks and been overall a crappy person to be around.
On top of this, I'm losing more and more friends by the day, I'm normally a popular person with a ton of friends, but now coz im so argumentative and alienating myself, no one wants to be around me.
I fell out with one of my lifelong friends a couple of weeks ago, I knew her since I was 1, when we used to live next door. Her mum and my mum are best of friends, and my little bro and her little bro are besties too. Because me and my friend had a blazing argument, her mum has stopped speaking to my mum and telling my brothers friend to stop talking to us. But, my clique of friends also fell out with her, and I was the only one trying to patch our friendship up. Suprisingly, she is now talking to all of my other friends, but not me, she wont even acknowledge me.
One time, she was really nasty to this person, and I told her that was a really awful thing to say, she went and punched me in the face, infront of around 50 people.
But I feel really responsible for killing off 3 REALLY good friendships off...

I know I should have told my parents this, but TBH, I actually find it easier to talk to you guys, than too my parents. This is probable coz you cant see how my emotions really are

I just hope they dont find out that I post on a forum and talk to people who 'i dont really know', otherwise, i would be in BIG trouble, like last time i was caught on some other fourm a couple of years ago.
I was banned from my computer for amonth and couldnt go out with my friends for 2 weeks.
Supposed, they wouldn't find out anyways: dad too busy powdering his brown-nose with my little brother, and my mum is always to pre-occupied with her work, and never seems to have time for me.
I've spoken to my dad about his favoritism, he denied all of it, so when i point it out, he just shouts at me and calls me an idiot, which just maked me feel like crap and depressed, which then in turn reminds me of the old house, or 'happier times' i call them, which causes me to lose friends....

One of my biggest regrets in life was moving house.

I know this seems really stupid, but I've felt like i just want to run away and never talk to anyone, except for you people, i can really trust all of you, for which i am very greatfull of
Only you guys know about the WHOLE situation, please dont mock me

im really sorry for wasting your time of me rambling on...

[digital*aria]

there is no such thing as wasting someones time rambling when its as important as that, gym. i feel for you, i really do.

but you know what? moving to a new house isnt the end of the world. youre going to have to accept it, because you most likely arent going back. and try to make some new friends. it might be hard, but even just smiling at a person can make a world of a difference.



lmao theres an add down there: 'anxiety? panick attacks? trouble sleeping? chase away your worries with seredyn!' or something like that.

yeah right, liek that would help.

[Skills_sant^^]

Oh, im sorry Gym :/